Heavy On Me

Saw you standing by the bar

Fluorescent

Got to find out who you are

Before he gets here

Steal away off to the corner

Finally

I talked way too much

You were happy to let me

Oh what a mirage

I see it now

It was all a mirage

Oh Now I know there's nothing else like

Oh A walk through the desert on your side

No one else to hold on

Sleep next to you when it's cold

Oh

Took the long way out

There at the end saw you crying

You go first

I'll take the road behind you

Oh what a mirage

I see it now

It was all a mirage

Oh Now I know there's nothing else like

Oh A walk through the desert on your side

No one else to hold on

Sleep next to you when it's cold

Oh Now I know there's nothing else like it

Time won't stand still

Some parts may linger

Wounds heal, plans change

Love grows deeper

Credits:

Written by Kevin Embleton

Produced and mixed by Kevin Embleton

Mastered by Kevin Embleton

It's moments like these

Wonder if you're gonna be ok

You know I worry bout you making your way

I wanna save from the pain I went through

But in the end I know I can't control you

It's moments like these

Wonder if I think it's gonna be ok

You call me up

And wanna run it by me

I come on too strong

Hoping that you see the way I see

Hear it in your tone

You're gonna do the opposite

I hang up the phone

And second guess everything

It's moments like these

Wonder if you're gonna be ok

You know I worry bout you making your way

I wanna save from the pain I went through

But in the end I know I can't control you

It's moments like these

Wonder if I think it's gonna be ok

I'm one to talk

You know I did the same thing

Think I've seen it all

But IRL truth stings

Just wanna control

I don't always see the best in you

Gotta let go

Older brother get over it

Get over it

It's moments like these

When I think you're gonna be ok

You know I worry bout you making your way

I wanna save from the pain I went through

But in the end I know I can't control you

It's moments like these

When I think it's gonna be ok

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Written and produced by Kevin Embleton

Mixed by John Merkel

Mastered by Kevin Embleton

Felt it on the way out

It lifted off of my shoulders

Highways in the desert sand

In the canyon

Bought a notebook to write it down

Flying down the coast

Brace for landing

You were there when I lost the most

Hold me when it comes

When the dam breaks

I don't wanna be pulled away

Whatever you do

Don't make me

Don't make me go back

Don't make me

Don't make me go back

Can I stay just a little longer

I feel like myself tonight

Sit with me beside the water

And look out at Lake Minneola

Whatever you do

Don't make me

Don't make me go back

Don't make me

Don't make me go back

Don't make me go back

Don't wanna go back

Don't make me

Don't make me go back

Whatever you do

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Written by Kevin Embleton and Jaret Kline

Produced and mixed by Kevin Embleton

Mastered by Kevin Embleton

I can't even imagine this in past tense

Anymore

You know I've tried to stop making sense

It's just up and down, floor to floor

Another face to tell me I'm fine

What's wrong

I don't know


I'm fine

nothing's wrong

I don't know

Your hand's been heavy on me

Don't even know what for

Been trying to do the right thing

Don't know what's right no more

Start from the beginning

Play it back

Encore

Studying the timeline's all but useless

Did I hear your voice or make it up

I can't convince myself that I'm fine

What's wrong, I don't know

I'm not fine, I was wrong

Didn't know

Your hand's been heavy on me

Don't even know what for

Been trying to do the right thing

Don't know what's right no more

If I kick the dust up

On my way out

When it settles down will you be cold

Will you wait til

It's over

To say I never told you to go

When it settles down will you be cold

Your hand's been heavy on me

Don't even know what for

Been trying to do the right thing

Don't know what's right no more

Credits:

Written and produced by Kevin Embleton

Mixed by John Merkel

Mastered by Kevin Embleton

There's no need to quote the past

If you've put it to rest

But it's getting clearer that it controls you

Like drinking poison and hoping that

Your anger will be avenged

That the guilty will die too

Reminisce if it's helpful

Reminisce if it's true

But don't let it own you

Don't feel like you have to act

I know it's a process

Trying to let go when it holds on

Don't bury the truth of it

Just bury the hatchet

Or quickly become the guilty too

Reminisce if it's helpful

Reminisce if it's true

But don't let it own you

Reminisce to be thankful

But whatever you do

Don't let it own you

Like drinking poison and hoping that

Your anger will be avenged

That the guilty will die too

Credits:

Written by Kevin Embleton

Produced and mixed by Kevin Embleton

Mastered by Kevin Embleton

If you asked me when all of it started

I'm not sure that I could say

I'm just like you and all of our friends

Am I born into this or did someone

Teach me to be afraid

I'm not sure there was a day

If I could stay on track

I would be with you

Soon as my days have passed

And the harder I've tried to get over

The unrelenting shade

The more unforgiving it becomes

So sometime ago you convinced me

That my hope it was misplaced

Even if I am stuck this way

If I could stay on track

I would be with you

Soon as my days have passed

And one day you'll behold all the wreckage

In my frail and anxious frame

I'll be healed at the sound of your voice

Then for days we can't count

I'll be with you

With no cares upon my name

I'll be healed at the sight of you

If I could stay on track

I would be with you

Soon as my days have passed

If I could stay on track

I would be with you

Soon as my days have passed

You say if I would only ask

You'd bring heaven down

Calm the waves in my aching heart

At least for now

At least for now

At least for now

At least for now

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Written by Kevin Embleton

Produced, mixed, and mastered by Kevin Embleton

I can't help but to lay awake at night

And think about you there all by yourself

If walls could talk I know you'd be alright

At least you'd have someone that you could tell

The things that you've been saying to yourself

I know I'm not the only one whose up at night

Thinkin' bout you there all by yourself

I can't believe it took so long to realize

You'll never get away without some help

I wish you felt the same but I can't tell

I won't pretend it's ok when I've seen you like this over

Over it won't go away unless you say you're ready now

I've seen your knuckles white as snow but even then

you always keep an eye up on the shelf

For something that you can't control around the bend

You know that you can't fight it by yourself

You'll never get away without help

People don't get sober when they think their life is over

Over like a broken record

Play it till it's worn out

I won't pretend it's ok when I've seen you like this over

Over it won't go away unless you say you're ready now

Ready for the gift that is another day

Mercies that are new with every dawn

Ready for a chance to think another way

Ready to give up the road you're on

For mercies that are new with every dawn

Ready to believe you're not the only one

Who needs mercies that are new with every dawn

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Written, produced, mixed, mastered by Kevin Embleton

Took a year off

When I came back

I could see the colors fade

As I undressed

Like the leaves left

Surprise, I look the same

And I'm not ready for the winter

To be stuck here with myself

If only I knew it'd be different

When the snow melts

Guess it's easier to leave it

Than to stay and face the pain

Now the days are getting shorter

Is there any other way

'Cause I'm not ready for the winter

To be stuck here with myself

If only I knew it'd be different

When the snow melts

And I'm not ready for the winter

To be stuck here with myself

If only I knew it'd be different

When the snow melts

Took a year off

When I came back

Surprise, I look the same

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Written, produced, mixed, mastered by Kevin Embleton

All my life I thought this was the only way to be

And everyone was just like me

Live awhile and fake a smile

Then join the saints at last

Forever young and free

Til you sat me down

Said I should get checked out

Am I the only one

I'd settle for normal

White picket fence

To not wake up and feel the heavy on my chest

I'd settle for stable

Blend in to the rest

A level head to keep my feelings in check

I'd settle for ok

All my life I've moved around from town to town and now

I forgot your name

And the place we met

On the way the play by play

Rewind it back again

Did I say too much

Did I scare you away

So you sat me down

Said I should write about

Some happy thoughts

What about the song I just wrote

Isn't it normal

White picket fence

To wake up everyday with all this on my chest

Isn't it stable

Just like the rest

What's a level head to keep my feelings in check

You sat me down

Said I should get checked out

Not fake a smile

Another day

Will it mess me up

Will I feel the same

When it's said and done

Is there another way

To settle for normal

White picket fence

To not wake up and feel the heavy on my chest

Settle for stable

Blend in to the rest

A level head to keep my feelings in check

I'd settle ok

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Written, produced, mixed, mastered by Kevn Embleton

We're better on paper

But stuck in this room

Think I'm going crazy

Because of you

I know I can't stay here

But now im used to

The things that you say and think

Like they're true

Over me

But I'm over you

Over the things that you do

Just get over me

Cause I'm over you

Over the things that you do

I tried to run away once

to get away from you

Look over my shoulder

You came too

Look over my shoulder

You can't seem to

Get over me

But I'm over you

Over the things that you do

Just get over me

Cause I'm over you

Over the things that you do

Guess I'm better on paper

But to tell the truth

I'd rather start living

Than be stuck with you

No missing our condition once you're gone

Figure out how

I can move on

Send you on your way

Over me

Cause I'm over you

Over the things that you do

Just get over me

Cause I'm over you

Over the things that you do

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Written, produced, mixed, mastered by Kevin Embleton

You know I'm not where I wanna be

But I'm here right now

I guess that this is recovery

And I should settle down

No matter what it will follow me

And I can see it now

I guess that this is recovery

And I should settle down

One step forward

Two steps back

If you need me

This is where I'll be at

I never thought this is where I'd be

But I'm getting used to it

I guess that this is recovery

Where dreams don't die

They just repeat like that

One step forward

Two steps back

If you need me

This is where I'll be at

Two step forward

Three steps back

If you need me

This is where I'll be at

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Written by Kevin Embleton and Spencer Martin

Produced, mixed, mastered by Kevin Embleton

Is this goodbye

Is this the end

I've gotten used to seeing you

And I can't help it

Say I'll be fine

I'll start again

You know I'm tired of

Thinking of new ways to blend in

I wanna count the hours til you come home

See your eyes light up

You're the only one

Can remind me of the things

I let go of back then

I want you by my side when I go out

Not waste another day looking around

Trying to think of all the ways

I could make it without you

I've been down that road before

So what about

All the loose ends

I can't just go on burning bridges hoping for the best

I won't be fine

Won't start again

You know I'm tired of blending in

I wanna count the hours til you come home

See your eyes light up

You're the only one

Can remind me of the things

I let go of back then

I want you by my side when I go out

Not waste another day looking around

Trying to think of all the ways

I could make it without you

I've been down that road before

Down that road before

I wanna count the hours til you come home

See your eyes light up

You're the only one

Can remind me of the things

I let go of back then

I want you by my side when I go out

Not waste another day looking around

Trying to think of all the ways

I could make it without you

I've been down that road before

Down that road before

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Written, produced, mixed, mastered by Kevin Embleton